The daily grind

I’ve been following my new schedule pretty well for the last month.  I never quite hit everything, but it’s much better than it’s ever been before.  I’m proud of that, and I can tell I am much more focused on my specific goals now.  However that leaves me to wonder what is the point of this blog.  When I started I had a lot of side projects I really wanted to get to.  Now I really want to focus on training and circus work.  Funny as it sounds, I’m not sure what I would keep writing about.  So i’m not sure if I will continue this blog, but I will definitely continue stretching!

Here’s my latest compliation:


A change is coming…


…Well that sounds more ominous than I meant.

It’s been a blast doing these projects  the past two years. I have learned so much about both myself and the topics at hand. In learning more about myself I’ve come to the conclusion that I need to change things up a bit. I am so happy I’ve done all these projects, but I having trouble fitting all these new habits and ideas into my daily life. Daily life, habitual action is how things really change long term. My projects have been fun one or two month mini obsessions, which more often than not fall to the wayside as I start a new project. Which in itself is fine, not all my projects were meant to impart lasting change on me. Recently though I’ve been using the projects as more of a procrastination tool, choosing the project or other really short term goals over the long term habitual work I need to be doing.  I’ve always loved a good marathon project.  The kind you lock yourself up in a room with for the whole weekend and only emerge when it’s complete.  Funny thing those marathon projects though, that’s not helpful for everything.  Shorter chunks of habitual work, daily will make a larger impact.  I know this, I believe this, and it’s time to focus on these ongoing, daily habits.

The last two years of projects have really helped my understand some of my personality quirks… aka flaws.

“you can do anything, but not everything”

I don’t know why I have such a desire to do everything, and everything all at once, but it doesn’t seem to be going away. Maybe it never will disappear on it’s own, but I have begun to see it in it’s true light: it’s a vice, it’s looking for an easy fix and it’s not helping me.

“perfect is the enemy of good”

I’ve always been a perfectionist, but I used to feel almost proud about it. It means I’m a hard worker who strives for the best, what’s wring with that right? It also means I never feel like anything is good enough and I stop things before I finish rather than doing them poorly.

“stop researching, start doing”

I can plan things forever. Always reading another article, researching another method, or watching another training video. Research is my go-to form of procrastination.  It makes simple tasks take forever and it fills my brain with unnecessary obsessive thinking, so I’m less free to be creative.  I do make excellent lists though.

I used to hide from my bad habits and I never would have wanted to share them with the world, I mean I want to be perfect. p.s. I definitely have more than three. But now I realize it’s much more powerful to know your faults, your tells, your coping mechanisms. That way I can recognize them when they are happening and steer myself back on course. They are part of my character and I don’t think I can rid myself of everything negative or counter productive, but I can recognize them, catch myself and then get on to the work that needs to be done.

So starting in December I am going to change it up a bit.  I’m going to focus on getting more consistent with my daily habits (a routine!) while working on smaller projects centered around themes that will help make my daily life more productive and happy (hopefully!).

Here’s to a happy December!!


Even with small steps, you eventually get somewhere


This post feels worlds apart from my last one.  Not that sugar doesn’t still tempt me, but it’s much less often and much less intense.  Here are the techniques I used to keep sugar at bay.

1.) Get as much of it out of the house as you can.  My husband doesn’t like sweets at all, so this was an easy one for me to do.  It was easier for me to resist a sugar craving when there was nothing in the house that could fix it.

2.) I ate more fruit.


3.) I recognized my craving patterns.  The biggest one for me is after dinner.  Almost like clockwork, even when I wasn’t thinking about sweets before, I always wanted a dessert after dinner.  I switched up that pattern by always making a cup of tea or hot lemon water (I’m an old lady) right after dinner.  It helped a lot.

4.) The small picture.  Taking things one day at a time instead of thinking of a future where I am never allowed to eat sugar again.

5.) Slowing down and focusing on what I am eating.  I eat fast and I’m on the go a lot.  By trying to slow down my eating and focusing on the flavors I’m more satisfied with what I am eating, and less preoccupied with what I’m missing.

And here are some things that I read about that didn’t help me at all:

1.) Smell the dessert/ sweet that you are craving.  This did not work for me.  I have to say I only tried it once, but for me it dramatically increased my craving and it gave my craving a goal.  I couldn’t stop thinking about the piece of chocolate until I eventually ate it.  Plus I don’t want to be the weirdo smelling other people’s desserts in public.

2.) Just having one or two bites.  At least right now, one bite is not an option my brain understands.


I don’t think I am %100 sugar free, but I have cut down a lot and I am already craving it a lot less.  It’s a little magical to me how easily I can taste sugar in places I couldn’t before, like bread and salad dressings.

**side note**  WHY is there sugar in store made bread?  I’ve made bread a lot and there is no need for sugar at all, what’s the point!!  When you put sugar in bread it becomes cake.**

Lastly a word of advice for anyone who in interested in lessening their sugar consumption:  be prepared for it to be hard.  Sugar is addictive, a mood stimulant and it’s everywhere.  But the difficulty begins to subside in as short as a week with little to no sugar.   Forever without sugar sounds daunting and impossible, but when you take it one day at a time… well then it’s as easy as apple pie (sugar free apple pie of course!) 🙂